【双语】张曙光·《雪 》

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第一次看到雪我感到惊奇，感到

一个完整的冬天哽在喉咙里

我想咳嗽，并想尽快地

从那里逃离。

我并没有想到很多，没有联想起

事物，声音，和一些意义。

一张张陌生的面孔，在空气中浮动

然后在纷飞的雪花中消逝

那时我没有读过《大屠杀》和乔伊斯的《死者》

我不知道死亡和雪

有着共同的寓意。

那一年我三岁。母亲抱着我，院子里有一棵树

后来我们不住在那里——

母亲在1982年死去。

1986



Snow

Zhang Shuguang

Snow, I was surprised. The first snow

choked in my throat,

I wanted to cough, to run

from snow.

I didn’t see the street, the poplars, the park benches,

the conductor’s whistle. Snow.

Faces of idiots abused the air

and turned to snow.

I didn’t have a chance to read the “Massacre”

or “The Dead” by Joyce.

I didn’t know death and snow

are colleagues.

I was three that year, Mother threw me up in the air, a tree in the yard.

Now we don’t live in snow –

Mother’s nostrils don’t breathe. 1982.