This poem has come out of my need to reach those who find themselves in times of despair. It comes out of
my observations of those around me and seeing their helpless state.
December 1, 2000
My heart ached the other day
As amidst the crowd I saw
A young man so alone and lost
That I could bear no more
I walked across toward him
And as I caught his eye
The pleading that I saw within
I just could not deny
He turned his gaze toward me
And as he looked my way
He seemed to understand my thought
Then he began to cry
As I reached out to touch his hand
I felt my heart would break
For softly from amidst the tears
I heard the young man speak
"I wish I knew what I should do
My life's not worth the living
There is no soul to comfort me
Or care what I am feeling
I wake up every morning
Hoping the day will bring
Someone who will befriend me
Or find some peace within
But each new day is darker
Even though the sky is blue
I cannot feel the sun's rays
'Cause my heart is broken through
The boys tell me I can't fit in
I just don't meet their need
They're focused more on 'making it'
And I cannot succeed
My family's tried to understand
And do the best it can
But their ways didn't fit with mine
So I just turned and ran
I thought I could do better
I shunned their love and care
But now I know how right they were
I wish they could be here
I broke their hearts the day I left
Thinking I knew it all
Their voices still ring in my ears
I still can hear them call
Please help me, if you know the way
Please tell me what to do
I want to find my way back home
Before my life is through
I need to ask forgiveness
Of those I've hurt so bad
I love them so, I've got to go
Back to the life I had
I just can't bear to live this way
So hopeless and alone
I need some one to take my hand
And show my way back home"
There were no words that I could speak
As tears fell from my eyes
I held his hand and smiled at him
And hoped he'd realize
He'd found someone who'd take his hand
I'd walk the way with him
Until the time he finds his way
Back home to love again
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